violet-faeI hope autumn is treating everyone well! I know it can be a stressful time of the year due to school, family obligations, money, seasonal depression, and other holiday stressors, but just know that a few months of the year are not definitive of who you are, and things can be made better even if they are can't be the best right now. I believe in you~
i've been struggling with depression for g knows how long but i've found that playing video games really improves my mood
i think the i don’t matter thought stems from my belief that my feelings don’t matter
and i think i have that belief because i was emotionally neglected
and subconsciously taught to bottle up any negative emotion i had and cover it up by wearing a fake smile
my feelings matter apparently but i don’t know how to convince myself of that
i understand that me feeling happy will help me improve my life
but i don’t think i deserve to be happy
and there isn’t an easy way for me to become happy, like i can’t just flick a switch and then suddenly be happy
