Ray. He/Him/His. 26. All-Inclusive, Intersectional Feminist. Gray-A/Pan (Both Romantic/Sexual) Trans Man. Neurodivergent (Anxious/Autistic/Depressed/Stressed). Avatar Source: https://picrew.me/image_maker/63540
Many people seem to think it foolish, even superstitious, to believe that the world could still change for the better. And it is true that in winter it is sometimes so bitingly cold that one is tempted to say, ‘What do I care if there is a summer; its warmth is no help to me now.’ Yes, evil often seems to surpass good. But then, in spite of us, and without our permission, there comes at last an end to the bitter frosts. One morning the wind turns, and there is a thaw. And so I must still have hope.
so i've finally decided to post these on here, for my first tries at pixel art i'm pretty happy with how they turned out :)
(had to repost because the format was super weird and it displayed blurred for some reason)
and second, a little rant (that ended up being not so little) :
it's a fight against myself for me to post this, because i'm super insecure about everything i make, and i either think it's shit, or i think that it's not good enough to be posted online (even if i'm personnally happy with it). but i also realized that, if i wait to make something that i find worthy of being posted to start sharing my art online, i'm gonna end up never posting anything. so.
one of the things that convinced me to post this is the 2009vs2019 thing that i've seen artists doing on twitter and instagram. for most of them, the contrast is pretty striking. it was really reassuring in a way, because it reminded me that artists whose work i love and admire, they didn't start out that way. it's so easy to forget that getting to the level of detail and quality of what "popular" artists, who are often professionals, make, takes a very very long time; because when artists post something, we don't see that. we don't see the years of work, the thousands of hours spent praticing and perfecting their craft, the countless drawings that never got posted. we only see the result of that. and so our vicious brains (or at least my vicious brain, but i don't think i'm alone here) convinces us that we should also be able to do that, and that unless we make something that is on that level, it isn't worth sharing with the world. having such an easy access to other people's art and creations is truly amazing, it's one of my favorite things about social media, but i think it also sets a very high bar for beginner and/or amateur artists, and i end up putting a shit ton of pressure on myself in regards to what i consider to be "good enough" (the fact that i'm very perfectionnist doesn't help), because i can't help comparing my work to the one of people who have years of experience that i obviously don't.
one of my main concerns with posting this was "but what if in a few years/months i think this is really bad and i regret posting it". well, i'm happy with these drawings now. and if in ten years, two years or even a few months i'm not anymore, it's okay. it's okay to start small ; and there is no shame in acknowledging that you've improved, but also that you can and will improve. if in a few months/years, i'm able to make stuff that is a lot more complex and much better than this (and i hope i will), it doesn't mean that this was bad to start with. it means that it was a start. and if i want to share it, i shouldn't be stopped by the idea of an hypothetical "better" work that i will make later and that i should share instead.
sorry for this long long rant, but i needed to write this out, and now that i have, i realize that i just unwinded some lowkey toxic beliefs i had about my own art, and the idea of sharing it, so that's pretty cool !
that's nice to know that i do pass when i'm wearing a binder and a baggy enough shirt
i think i don't pass at work because my job is very physical so i can't wear a binder
plus it's hard not to switch into my placating, feminine retail voice when i'm dealing with customers that could get aggro at any moment
but it's nice to know that i can pass outside of work
now i just need to get some more baggy shirts when i have more money
Today’s look. Button-up with faux-leather shoulders, skinny jeans, army boots circa 1964, + raven skull necklace.
Leaving to celebrate my father’s birthday in a bit; my relatives are all sure to appreciate The Goth. /s
my sister got me kylo ren jellybeans for christmas because she knows i love him
i thought the flavors were amusing because nearly all of them are sparkling except for the orange sherbet and toasted marshmallow ones
i don't know what makes a flavor sparkle